This article originally appeared in Southern Exposure Vol. 3 No. 1, "Southern Black Utterances Today." Find more from that issue here.
MY MOTHER
somewhere here
is this face
who grabs my everything
and takes me world hopping
and lets me see myself in
going up
way up
to the top of my be.
ON A FORGOTTEN THEME
haunting realities kept crouched beneath
the foot of my mind,
pushing at my soul,
sucking at my breath.
and me the shrewd one
stomping all the arteries out,
stepping away from a tinge
of paradox lying in the mud.
I lay a pure silk scarf across and jump.
THE 3/4ths WATER OF YOU
Flavor overflow
catches me dry.
Its fall could not penetrate my shut pores.
The flow divided, saturates.
Tiny bubbles disguise themselves as air,
And slip in somehow,
The microscopic crystals melt
and reorder my life.
Them the water pearls of your being.
I splash around
in circles of your wet laugh
your long kisses,
your poetry fills my arteries
with the bubble
of your who you are.
3/4ths water.
I can not swim!
Even the cities are flooded
and I wade through hoping
I can make it.
The "h" too bores
a wooden ring through the hole in my nose
marked, taken.
It's good,
the bath of knowledge
poured from your special cup,
adjusting automatically, to what
we both can take.
We say goodby on the shores of the future
Because we know presence is not needed,
Another time
Another place,
it will rain again.
THE ABSENT BRIDGE
I sat before this
woman squinching her eyes
in my unfortunate direction.
I sat looking at the holes her
atomic words left,
could see clear through
to the other side of the world!
There were no pardoning words,
come suddenly swashing from my mouth,
I sat uncomfortable.
Silent.
Explicit.
Misunderstood.
Even reached across the erupted
river between.
She was black and just wouldn't hear of it.
Then she said, he said,
they probably did.
But I was the central issue,
the one that turned the motor on.
Black and so called educated, compromised.
But I had been born in a project,
moved out and there she still stayed,
accusing me of being her jailer.
I held no gun,
but pointed to the central cause.
I made more money than she did
and she did
all the work.
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Janet A. Tarver
Janet A. Tarver is formerly of the Black Arts Center of Houston, Texas. (1975)